Pathless path

Fleeting and mundane experiences of worldly play,

Inherently paradoxical,

hypnotic pursuit with momentary feelings of

happiness and sadness.

Fragmented existence with periodic

waxing and waning cycles.

Misperceptions, misconceptions, misbeliefs, accumulated over lifetimes,

Thoughts, actions and communication driven from the unconscious and subconscious,

Conflicts activated by worldly experiences,

Goal seeking mechanical existence,

Fixated, blinded, unaware of the self, 

Complexity further enhanced by entangled layers of personal mental models,

worldly narratives, familial programming and cultural conditioning,

Logical and unintended consequences abound.

Sharp and at times rude awakening -

for the ones grossly immersed and involved, 

Lest they get carried away or fall asleep.

Gentle and frequent reminders of the futility of the play - 

for those in their comfort zones,

A corrective wakeup call - 

for those overtly forgetful or lost in the maze.

Futility dawns,

seeking begins,

observing others, reading self help books, soliciting advise -

sources of borrowed truth that seldom reasonate and dissipate quickly.

Uncertainty, insecurity and fear triggering

Traumatic, illogical, painful experiences.

Overpowering and frequent bouts of an urge to run away 

from the crowd and its strange, malicious and contradictory ways.

Persistent seeking at all costs,

Unfazed resolve,

Right attitude and perseverance,

Prioritizing the self over the noise,

One finds solace in silence,

Unlearning old and often deep seated habits and patterns,

A slow, hard, complex and painful process.

Overtime one identifies and refines a process

that facilitates self awareness in the face of any circumstance,

Keen self observation,

Contemplation, Reasoning, 

Daily trial and error - what works and what does not work,

Stumbling on subtleties and nuances,

epiphanies, insights, and revelations,

A few forward steps followed by frequent regressive strides, 

Excruciatingly slow progress.

First hand experiential end to end learning,

drives holistic awareness and understanding,

Overtime self awareness strengthens and matures

Realization dawns - seeker is the sought.

No blind pursuits,

No urgency,

No further loop existence,

Relaxed self awareness,

Blissful breaths, 

Over time steadily settling within.

The pursuit and seeking ends and

the true journey begins.